People ask me, how I stayed with Jared so long without making him marry me. One friend really pressures her brother in law to propose to his girlfriend and expects me to have some words of wisdom for the non-bride to be. Well, here they are....

Dont spend even one second wondering when he will ask or expecting him to. Spend every moment with him enjoying him....soaking in every detail of him, because it might be your last. Then that is all you will have to hold onto.

Dance! Dance every chance you get, even when there isnt a dance floor.
Sing! Sing at the top of your lung in the car, to each other.
Laugh! Laugh when you lose at the radio game, laugh when you get lost because he actually listened to your directions, laugh when you break something.
Appreciate him! Let him know you appreciate everything he does for you. When he is sweaty and dirty from mowing the yard, hug him and tell him how you love it when it is so pretty. Kiss him when he spent the last 8 hrs putting in a wood floor that you wanted.

When he touches you.....really feel it, dont let it become habit.
When he looks at you and smiles....look back, smile back and memorize every piece of that face looking at you.
When he says he loves you....look him in the eyes and say it back, not just out of habit.

Dont argue over the petty things. Make memories that you can keep with you forever. Dont have regrets and appreciate every second you have together.

I dont get forever with Jared, but I have books and books of pictures and memories that I wouldnt trade for anything.

"I wouldnt have missed it for the world. I, wouldnt trade one memory, cuz you mean too much to me. Even though I lost you, I wouldnt have missed it for the world."

"....and the flowers that I never had. Baby, why'd you leave me why'd you have to go? I was counting on forever, now Ill never know. I cant even breath.....This cant be happening to me. This is just a dream.....She held on to all she had left of him and what could have been. "

Love is...making sandwiches for your road trip, and eating them even when they are the strangest combination of food you have ever tasted.
Love is...moving all my stuff back home so I would have somewhere to feel safe.
Love is...painting the walls purple, just for me.
Love is...exchanging every piece of clothing he has ever bought for the exact same thing, just a size bigger, because he sees you skinny no matter how much you have changed.
Love is...being fat and not noticing.
Love is...the second TV and buying headphones for the PS3.

"I will remember you, will you remember me? Dont let your life pass you by.
Im so afraid to love you, more afraid to loose, clinging to a past that doesnt let me choose. Once there was a dark, deep and endless night, you gave me everything you had, oh-you gave me light."